Nickelback

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I have been a huge fan of Nickelback ever since they released their album 'Silver Side Up' in my senior year of highschool. I love how their songs can range from dynamic rock anthems to powerful love ballads, and their lyrics have always stuck a chord with me.
OK - I know not everyone likes Nickelback, and many have criticised the band for being misogynistic, but I personally take some of their lyrics to be tongue in cheek - some people need to loosen up and gain a sense of humour! :)
I recently purchased their latest album from iTunes the other day, titled 'Here and Now', and there is one song that has struck a particular chord with me - 'Trying Not to Love You'. I have shared the lyrics of this song below, taken from http://www.metrolyrics.com

NICKELBACK - TRYING NOT TO LOVE YOU 
(V1)You call to me, and I fall at your feetHow could anyone ask for more?And our time apart, like knives in my heartHow could anyone ask for more?

(Chorus)But if there's a pill to help me forget,God knows I haven't found it yetBut I'm dying to, God I'm trying to

'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so farTrying not to need you, is tearing me apartCan't see the silver lining, from down here on the floorAnd I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for'Cause trying not to love youOnly makes me love you moreOnly makes me love you more

(V2)And this kind of pain, only time takes awayThat's why it's harder to let you goAnd nothing I can do, without thinking of youThat's why it's harder to let you go

(Chorus)But if there's a pill to help me forget,God knows I haven't found it yetBut I'm dying to, God I'm trying to

'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so farTrying not to need you, is tearing me apartCan't see the silver lining, from down here on the floorAnd I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for'Cause trying not to love youOnly makes me love you more

(Bridge)So I sit here divided, just talking to myselfWas it something that I did?Was there somebody else?When a voice from behind me, that was fighting back tearsSat right down beside me, and whispered right in my earTonight I'm dying to tell you

That trying not to love you, only went so farTrying not to need you, was tearing me apartNow I see the silver lining, from what we're fighting forAnd if we just keep on trying, we could be much more'Cause trying not to love youOh, yeah, trying not to love youOnly makes me love you moreOnly makes me love you more

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/trying-not-to-love-you-lyrics-nickelback.html ]

Copied from MetroLyrics.com 

What resonates with me is:

But if there's a pill to help me forget,God knows I haven't found it yetBut I'm dying to, God I'm trying to

And this kind of pain, only time takes awayThat's why it's harder to let you goAnd nothing I can do, without thinking of youThat's why it's harder to let you go
I'm looking forward to six months from now, when the pain will have lessened, if not completely dissappeared. Either that, or someone invents that magic pill! It's sad that I'm wishing time away though, isn't it?
I am a lot stronger though, despite the mood of this post. But the healing process takes time, and I'm allowing myself that time. I cannot rush this. I cannot dull what I am feeling. I cannot be on a time frame determined by others as to when I 'should be better by'.

They say that a journey starts with just one step. I have done that, and have to continue taking each day as it comes.

x Mich